Unbearable Pain: My Fight Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with severe discomfort behind a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In 1998, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before eventually being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with acute treatment only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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Taylor Chandler
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